For those of you who don't know me, I tend to be in Newgrounds Radio Chat. Anyways, this is how my week went....

You know.. There are some things in life that upset people enough that they want to freaking... No, fucking kill someone. This is one of those times. Oh, and anyone who personally knows my parents or is related to me that I have not removed from my Facebook list of friends, I would advise you to stop reading now cause this message is going to get dark very quickly.

Now that I've established that warning and hopefully captured your attention, I can tell you why I'm so pissed... But first, lets roll the clock back to Monday Nov. 29 (What? Did you think I would reveal the answer right away?) ... No unusual events happened on that particular day. Mom was home and it was a "normal" chore day... Tuesday came along and it was a normal routine for me. Get up, have a shower and hang around home until it's time to pick up the car (which is usually between 12:30 and 1:30 PM) then go do my paper route. Well, on that night I decided to smoke a bowl of weed from my pipe. (For those who are going to preach to me about smoking pot, please don't. My parents already know and I will be cutting off all communication if you do.) I smoked outside and came back home and probably smelled like pot. No big deal, it's my life, my choice and if I get caught it's also my consequences.... Anyways, Wednesday rolled around and I was feeling lazy and very temperamental. Not because of the pot, oh no, because of my attitude towards any corporation. You see, this is the day where I was supposed to hand in my resume to a Petro Canada service station being advertised in the local paper.

Now, you're probably wondering why I have a shitty attitude towards corporations. I'll tell you why. It's because out of the many months looking for a job, I've only had one interview. That interview was for Bed, Bath and Beyond. Needless to say I wasn't considered on their team which is fine. I honestly have no problem with that, however, what pisses me off is when I went ahead and applied at McDonalds (which I swore I would never do but I'm desperate) and I have yet to receive a callback. Same thing goes for Stream (which I've worked there before and I loved it! Until I realized that I was too sensitive for handling irritated customers with complicated [yet easy to resolve if their not upset] computer problems)... I congratulate you if you've made it this far but there still is more.... And no, I haven't got a callback from that Petro Canada either.

Have I lost you yet? We're still on Wednesday. My mom called me that morning and told me that I should walk down and get the car so I could drop my resume off at that particular service station. I told her no thinking to myself "Why would I want to do that when I can use the car when she gets home?" At that point she accused me of having an attitude which consequentiality I didn't have at the time until after her accusation. I then spent the rest of the day being pissed at her and during that time my anger towards corporations also came up. Needless to say, I didn't do anything that day. Didn't shower or get dressed and when my Mom came home I told her I wasn't feeling well. Obviously something clicked in her head and the moment I said I wasn't feeling well she responded with "You don't need your computer if you're sick." Well, her saying that set off a triggered bomb in my head that was developing all day and I too snapped. I got up, threw a pair of pants on and a shirt and in frustration told her I would go. As soon as I was dressed she immediately disconnected my laptop as I pleaded for her to take away anything but that. She then did the unthinkable (at least in my eyes) she took my fucking lock-box which has all my weed and equipment for smoking.... Fuck, just saying that makes me angrier than ever. So angry that it makes me want to kill her but what would that do? It'd just land me in jail and I'd never be able to enjoy the rest of my life. Besides, I'd probably kill myself before taking another persons life anyways. Besides, It would only take me about 16-20 extra strength Tylenol to do so if I really wanted to be that selfish.... I did, however, take two extra strength Tylenol (being 100% healthy) before leaving the house and it took all my strength not to ram a random driver off the road in anger or deliberately have an accident in an attempt to kill myself...

This leads me to my next day, Thursday... It was a dark day for me. The entire day I was having thoughts of suicide. I had even gone so far to try and attempt by pouring out a handful of extra strength Tylenol however I didn't swallow a single pill. My mom tried calling me several times throughout the day and I had ignored every call except the last one. Her response over the phone? "We need to talk." ... My response was pure silence. Feeling angry and suicidal I went and did my paper route (which I hate doing Thursdays because there's an average of 12 bundles because of the paper thickness due to the amount of fucking flyers so anger fueled my speed of the route). I got it done by 3:10, drove back to my moms workplace, gave her the car keys and stormed out of there. I did not want to see or speak to her. Currently, I still don't because of what she did.

Friday and Saturday were okay. I still had thoughts of suicide but not as bad as Thursday. Yesterday (Sunday) I asked my Mom if I could have my computer back and she said no. That triggered the whole cycle of anger which is why I wrote this today.

Well, that's all folks. If you have any comments or questions (other than weed) feel free to post them.